Monday, 30 July 2007
1.38pmTo all the folks who wrote in comments. I thank you from the bottom of my heart.
To be honest, I just rediscover peace on Friday, after posting all those nasty things. Heh, I cannot believe that I've just mentioned it too. Hahah... I have to admit, it has been a while since I did what I am supposed to do. But once you do it, you have got to admit, God is Almighty. He have the power to make you feel anything at the slightest of effort. Heh.. Thank God for God hahaha...
For a while there, I forgot my life mantra. Let people trouble you but not you trouble people. Heh, when you apply that to someone and that someone is gone, all purpose of that mantra simply almost (quote, almost) vanished into thin air until I decided to whine to God. I have never felt sooo much peace in all my life when I did that.
So, you folks do what you do, as always, and let me be. In due time, that vast depth of patience will return, maybe with some help (calling all single and hurt ladies out there heheheh...). No promises, but I will try my very best to say "Its Okay, Its Alright, ;-). Its healed, not fully, but healing and slowly being pieced back together one by one.
Zaki van Persie
Thursday, 26 July 2007
1.00pmAgain and again I am fooled. Again and again I am fooled. Again and again I am fooled.
I cannot take this anymore. I do not have friends in work. If they choose to be friends so be it. Do not expect any more from me. I am tired of giving freebies. At least, Bunny is better. She make me happy in more ways than one. No doubt she treat me like garbage for most of the time, she did loved me and make me feel that I am the most important person in the world. Others just make use of me like some kind of a kitchen rag and throw it away once it is dirty.
I feel so stupid. Used and used over and over again. Do not blame me for feeling this way.
I am not being personal. Others have their own reasons for screwing up and expect you to take it. I can't. I cannot have that luxury 'cause you folks are fucking stingy to give me that. I wish I can take back all those luxuries. So from now on... work is work. Personal stays at my ass. Trouble at work ? I will try my very best at my work level capacity to help. Otherwise, it is not my problem. Other people resign you also want to resign. You guys can go ahead for all I care. Changes are consistent. You are just colleagues. I treat you people as friends and I get hurt along the way.
Some people are not happy with you, they make monkey faces to others and expect others to understand them but they do not want to understand you. Others can have problems and they can drag them to work. But I can't. Sigh. The IRONY.
Folks,
You do not like me, say it straight in my face.
I have been there and done that.
It is not an alien environment to me.
BUT DO NOT LET IT AFFECT YOUR WORK.
IT IS YOUR FAULT IF YOU DO SO
AT LEAST I MIX WORK AND PLEASURE BUT I DO NOT LET WORK PERFORMANCE DROP.
KNOW YOUR ROLE AND SHUT YOUR MOUTH.
Yeah, I know I am bad and I can tell anybody I am fucking lousy, bad motherfucker, son of a bitch, yadda yadda... I do not need the free advert from you.
NOT HAPPY WITH ME AT WORK ???
Please do complain to Management.
Please see my supervisor for appropriate emails.
NOT HAPPY WITH ME PERSONALLY ???
TELL MY MOM AND KILL ME. One less human being on Earth. Free Lodging and Food at Changi Chalet.
I AM SICK OF THIS BULLSHIT.
I SUCK, SO WHAT ?
I AM SHIT, SO WHAT ?
I AM USELESS, SO WHAT ?
DID I DISTURB YOUR GRANDMA'S BIKE ???
AAAAAAAAAAAARRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGHHH !
Zaki van Persie
Friday, 13 July 2007
11.40amEnough about things. I think I want to have a crack on our "illustrious" public transportation.
We supposedly have a world class public transport system. Then explain to me these pointers :-
1) Why does the Pasir Ris bound train arrive at 8.08am instead of the scheduled 8.06am ?
2) Why does the same train, who is LATE, stop at EVERY STATION for at least 1 min even though there are VERY LITTLE PEOPLE boarding it ?
3) Where is the AIR-CON that we paid for ??? And THEY STILL HAVE the audacity to RAISE the fares ?!?!?!? READ MY LIPS... WAT THE FUCK !
4) 195 SUCKSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSS
MAYBE they should take the uncle from AZ-Bus Company that fetches us from the taxi stand every day as a role model. Always arrive at 8.35am/8.45am SHARP, regardless of the traffic flow, always with a smile and always, always send us to work on time every time. And GUESS WHAT ? THE SHUTTLE SERVICE IS FREE GODDAMMIT ! God Bless the uncle drivers at AZ-Bus Company. PLEASE do take note that I AM in NO WAY affiliated with them and I do NOT GAIN ANY FINANCIAL BENEFIT promoting them.
To those folks around me... I have an update about myself. Please DO NOT COLOUR ME if you YOURSELF cannot take it when YOU are being COLOURED BACK. AND DO NOT COLOUR OTHERS IF YOU CANNOT TAKE IT YOURSELF. SUCKASS... IN THIS WORLD, there is NO SUCK, excuse me, SUCH THING AS FREE MEAL. YOU EAT PEOPLE, PEOPLE EAT YOU ALSO. AND I DO NOT GIVE A SHIT WHAT YOU PEOPLE THINK. IN MY GODDAMN MUTHAFUCKING OPINION, I ROCK, I RULE, I KICKASS... IF YOU THINK OTHERWISE, DON'T BOTHER LETTING ME KNOW... CUZ I DO NOT GIVE A SHIT. This has been a "sensitive" issue... colouring and all...
To ARSENAL FC... WAKE UP... TIME to TELL the world that YOU ARE THE GREATEST FOOTBALL CLUB IN THE WORLD...
Zaki van Persie
Monday, 9 July 2007
6.20pmNo its okay... no its alright. everyfucking body can step on my head, mistreat me and stereotype me... oh yes.. they can abuse me, they can label me, they can "colour" me, disturb me, tease me, mock me, belittle me, hurt my feelings yadda yadda yadda... BUT I CAN'T....
You know what.. you guys can go kiss your own asses and go fuck a refridgerator for all I care. I do not need folks like these around me.. People have his or her limits... am I too fucking nice ???
I do not give a rat's ass if you do not acknowledge what I do... at least appreciate the work that has been delivered upon you... If this is NOT the case... then forget it... go find some other fucker to pick on... I have enough of these nonsense at home and now at work ?!?!?!
EAT MY SHIT...
Zaki van Persie