Friday 31 October 2008
Here I am again, ranting. Haha.
Alot of things have been happening folks. Series of car stalls, got to know someone who I think is really out of this world, well actually, out of my world, and a not-so happening theme park in Downtown East. But oh well, the look on my sis' face when she was inverted upside down... that was priceless.
But before that, got a chance to discover a little piece of heaven on earth. Didn't know that chocolate could be sinfully good. Got to admit, no sore throat in the morning... only the lingering taste of chocolate hahaha... Didn't know bald guys do good chocolate. Thanks Aishah.
Yeap folks, the driving craze doens't seem to stop for me. Got a crapass manual transmission car and actually got thru driving it for the first day. As usual, the guy who lets us rent was sceptical of my duration of driving ability. But I suppose we all know what show I watch and what kind of driving I idolise. So, yeah.. dun fret folks. I am KNIGHT RIDER. By the way, go check out the new Knight Rider 2008 TV series. Already released in the US.
Brought my sister to Escape Theme Park. Well, we managed to catch only two rides since we started at 5pm. But it was great. My sis gotten inverted haha, then got to sit in a go-kart with her driving it.. haha, sorry Mazeeks... you need to watch more Knight Rider.
I only got to know someone for about a few days and already she is able to list down my weaknesses and traits. I wonder, am I really an open book ? On the other hand, I know very little abt her, save for the fact that she likes to say "kuku", got purple hair, and is very creative with the way she yapped. Guess I am still missing a whole lot of stuffs about the world. And the world of emoticons... Thanks Krystal.. you kuku...
I cannot be bothered with what is going on with my former team. Busy smiling to myself and counting my blessings at work and at play now :-) Thank you God. I'd shake Your hands, if you have any, and not that I am implying that You have hands.
Krystal : u kukuzaki : yeak, i knew that
Zaki van Persie
Thursday 23 October 2008
Hehe. I can't stop smiling for this week. Alot of fun things happened to me. But I didn't think that fun would make a comeback to work.
Yeah, I had fun at work. Learning on the job. Getting minimal guidance. Heheh, the best way is to learn as you do it. I have been blessed by good people supporting me, setup teams, managers, sales representatives. And of course, B2b team. :-)
Interestingly, got to know one of the setup person at work. Working at the 7th floor. I cannot believe that I can just chat with her easily. Very easy going and nice. Almost wondered if its actually a guy cos I've never typed soo freely in a chatbox before. Thanks ah. :-) And thanks for bringing back the fun in my work. Sure beats waiting for emails to fly in and out. I have to admit, I'm kinda rusty at these things, but given time, it will come back to me. Muaahahahahahaha...
One more day to the long weekend. Cannot wait, gonna celebrated my sister's belated birthday this weekend. I think I'm gonna do sumthing. Yeak... Lets just hope that my sis dun decide to make out with the floor when she was 20... hahaha...
capitolblueart : i think i'm not going todayZaki : BLASPHEMY !
Zaki van Persie
Thursday 16 October 2008
I am calmer now. I need someone else to talk to about it. Not her. Not Ariff. Not my mum. But my supervisor. Haha.. She advised me well. I shall heed it.
I am staring at the email now, as I blog. Apparently, there was some Outlook error when I send that out. It didn't get send out. I actually sent the email to my supervisor. Sorry about that folks. But she gave me the best advise ever.
"If the boulder is already rolling over the edge, why do you still try to stop it from rolling".Heh.. pretty corny if you ask me, but it makes a hell of a lot of sense. She even asked me to sit back and take whatever that should come to me and diplomatically refuse what shouldn't. Heh. Now that is experience not even money can buy. I will try my best and not let her down in my new role.
Well, on to lighter things. Some people (thanks mickey) decided that they ought to sort out my fashion mis-alignment. I was kinda sad at that cause the 80s get-up (including the Hasselhoff hair) doesn't work anymore. So, maybe next weekend, I would want to schedule my time with some "experts" and do some shopping, starting with my wardrobe. Thanks folks. I still need some time to think about changing the hair, thou...
Zaki van Persie
Sunday 12 October 2008
I need to give ample warning. This post of mine is going to be explicit. It is not going to be friendly. It is going to be a no-holds barred post. Because sometimes, "I told you so" can't quite sum it up.
I have forecasted that the 4 monkeys in the DNA leaderSHIT team would come crawling back to me after three months. No! Barely 1 month and 9 days, they already come to Mr emotional, personal, crappy, and nonsensical ME ! Citing reasons such as same team budgeting and nonsense, and that because of this I should help the team out. WHAT RUBBISH ! Segregation have been done before. The team is split into three departments before, under one billing. Piperlite, B2b and Catalog. What is the difference now ? Oh yeah. Monkeys are running the team now. THAT's the fucking difference.
I knew DISC profiling was a bad idea. But No. Mr SENIOR OPS MANAGER (yeah, someone kill me now) was fucking confident that it would work. Calculated risk, he said. She can do it, he said. All of us are equally good, he said. Where the fuck is that confidence now ? Why the fuck must you call me back, getting me to help the team just because I seem to be doing fucking nothing ? What about the Ops Lead's GIRLFRIEND ??? WHY CAN'T YOU ASK HER TIME MOTION STUDY AND JUSTIFY HER FUCKING TIME WATCHING HK DRAMAS while her team members needs to TRAIN OTHERS AND DO UP ISS CTO MIGRATION !?!?! MY GOD !!! AND I AM PERSONAL ?!?!?!?!?!!?!?!?!?!?!?! AND WHAT ABOUT SOME OTHER FROLICKING FUCKTARDS ?!?!?! MOVE TO NEW SEAT BUT STILL HAVE THE FUCKING TIME TO FROLICK AROUND ?!?! MY GOD ! SOMEONE KILL ME NOW WHY DON'T YOU ???
So, it is okay for an OPS LEAD to give his GIRLFRIEND, AKA ATL, IMMUNITY ??? Oh, she can't do Intel when Shawn left. COS SHE'S YOUR FUCKING GIRLFRIEND. EVERYFUCKINGBODY can't touch her cos she's got immunity ! She's the boss' girl. Oh Yeah ! We are running the mafia now... Well, in that case, WHERE'S MY TOMMY GUN ? THE BEST PART IS, I, YESSSSS.. I.. AM BEING PERSONAL.
I would even consider if Mr SENIOR OPS MANAGER goes down to earth, tells me, "Zaki, I admit that I might have made a slight miscalculation on this. So, we might need your help with running the team until we have stabilised", NOT PULLING SOME GANGSTER SHIT AND TELLING ME THAT I AM PART OF THE FUCKING TEAM DUE TO COSTING AND WHAT RUBBISH AND SORTS... Guess SOME people HAVE NO FUCKING BALLS to FUCKING ADMIT that YES, I MADE A MISTAKE... You need help, but you are fucking arrogant about it. Amazing. Guess humility is hard to come by these days...
They are suggesting that I should help on a small part of the catalog team. My God. If you fuckers can think of this small thing, WHAT ON FUCK'S EARTH IS GOING TO STOP YOU RETARDS FROM ASKING ME TO HELP ON OTHER THINGS LIKE SAY.. PROCESS, TRAINING, REFRESHERS ??? MY GOD.. CUNNING MOTHERFUCKERS...
Oh yeah, I tried talking to Mr Ops Lead. He insisted that I should justify my fucking time in there. My God. Can someone ask HIS FUCKING GIRLFRIEND TO JUSTIFY HER HK DRAMA VIEWING TIME. hp has PERSONALLY told me that my performance is justified on the SLA deliverance of my tasks and NOTHING MORE. AREN'T WE A MANAGED SERVICE TEAM THAT WORKS BASED ON SLA and NOT TIME ?!?!?! MY GOD... WHAT KIND OF LIES CAN YOU FUCKERS COOK NEXT ?
Simple. You people are short of 2 staff now. Especially after I depart from the team. Now, you left that void empty. My God, do you really think that the team can survive without someone filling up that void ??? Instead, you burden the good staff with more work and leave the mediocre staff alone. Now, everyone wants to be mediocre... Amazing shit I am witnessing here.
The best part is, Ops Lead can just leave it to time to determine things. My God... wow... HOW IMMATURE CAN ONE GET. Yeah, Let time determine how screwed you are. Yeah, and he even told me to BELIEVE THAT she can do it ! WOW !!! Its all about belief, time and of course, friendship. Wow... I'm being personal here. He can even say that he'll hire one if I resigned from the team the last time. Wow.. more arrogance.
I am not holding back anything anymore. SHE IS NOT READY ! Confidence yes, Personality (WAT THE FUCK DISC) yes. KNOWLEDGE NO. EXPERIENCE NO. Transition from 3 to 20 is HUGE. And to have NO ONE TO TRULY MENTOR YOU, GUIDE YOU THRU LEADERSHIP, PROCESS KNOWLEDGE is RUBBISH. Especially when he only cares about fucking off from the team with his new post. AND YOU CAN'T TEACH EXPERIENCE. My God... Can he fuck off from there in the first place, now that chaos starts to brew??? FUCKING BLIND MOTHERFUCKERS... I can't wait for that day. Me ? That fucking ship has sailed. Its your fucking shit now...
My views fell on deaf ears, shunned away as absurdly gibberish, both in the past and present. Well, you 4 know damn well what I am capable of. Watch out for it, brace yourselves for it. Cause I'm going to bring my views to people who actually listens to them. I am sick of talking to deaf and blind monkeys...
Zaki van Persie
Tuesday 7 October 2008
:-) what can I say about my trip to Desaru. the grin is not going anywhere soon. it was a much needed break. thanks folks. 2years 9months later, i was able to take my Aidilfitri leave. my God. maybe thats the perk for working with blind bosses.
alot of things have been going on with work. sorry. not my worry now :-). a huge burden has been lifted off me ever since. i was able to drive 150 kilometres to Desaru worry free. not thinking about process, training, accounts etc. the entire journey (or half of it anyways) was filled with yapping old stories about the kampong and how i used to be a very mischevious one back then. 15 years. 15 years since i've been returned to Desaru. My God. thanks. Thank you God. As i drive to Desaru in my "borrowed" Punto Grande, i smiled. those memories of me there when i was just a small boy. dad used to drive us there every year. now its all part of good memories. now its up to us to make new good memories. i smiled. hearing mum talking about the good memories. i smiled when everyone was sleeping in the car... hah. turning to be a good driver. well, maybe its because of the long distance.
went to the first house. our aunt's house. damn nice. hell we almost missed it thanks to the improvements done to the house. yeap, almost every house has got a satellite dish. and yeap, no more red soiled roads. most are covered with gravel. human advancement.
most of them dun recognise me anymore. haha, well, could be due to the absence of geeky spectacles. most of them said that i looked like our late uncle who drowned some years ago. late years ago. wow. i think back. maybe thats where i developed my initial aqua phobia. my mum lost her brother in the sea... yeap. it was a nice reunion. all the hugs and kisses. never fails to warm my heart to see mum soo happy like that. i owe her alot. my mum. all her prayers. all her words of wisdom. all her encouragement when i was most down.
we then went to the second house. our grand dad's bro's house. thats where i found out that my mum is trying to hook me up with some of our distant cousins. yeap. heh... you've got to hand it to her. she even tries to settle my relationship issues. hah. people playing fireworks. woohoo... sounds like a warzone. but fun thou... heh
the first night was good. driving during the day and night thru Desaru is fun. Second night was even better. had lunch at one of our relative's place. what was served on the menu ? catfish ! yes catfish ! yum yum. first time had catfish. Mum was irking away at the fact that its lake water fish. surprisingly, the meat is soft and tender. it was cooked in two ways that day. barbecued and curry cooked. damn, it tasted good.
then went to more relatives house. all the cryings and stuff. most of them were delighted to see me. 15 years. it felt great to be back. the peace. the serenity of it all. looking at places not touched by advancement. well, they are advanced. but still retain its natural looks.
i actually can't put the trip into words. its just amazing... it was well worth the money we invested in the car and all the other stuffs. wish it would be longer thou.
Selamat Hari Raya Aidilfitri. Maaf Zahir Batin.
Zaki van Persie