Thursday 20 November 2008
I cannot believe what that has happened to me for the past few days. It looks like that things are turning out for the better. What they say is true. Good things come to those who wait awhile. Great things come to those things who wait awhile longer.
I would like to thank the people who made it possible for me to change my job once again. Hopefully, this is the one that is better for me. I know that if something as drastic as "that thing" happened, there must be something good that comes out of it. Hopefully, this is the one. Out of pure sanity, people talked me out of tendering my resignation once again. I just wanted to be out of his sight. He disgusts me. I am sorry if people say that I am emotional but who wouldn't be after what has transpired. Yes, he irks me. Telling me bullshit about myself, how poorly I handled it and all that horse crap. I wish I would never meet a manager like him in the future. Thanks for wasting 3 professional years of my life. Motherfucker.
I took MC for the first time last Monday and Tuesday. High fever and flu. Woke up with a splitting headache on Monday morning. Mom advised me to go see the doctor and take a rest. Informed my supervisor about that. Went to sleep. Wake up at 3. Went to the Doc's at 4. Got laughed at by the Doc for not seeing him or any other Doc for the past 3+ years. Heh, must be wondering how stupid I am... Gave me 2 days, told me to take it easy and have a break. Heh, I deserved that, he said. Sometimes, I think these doctors have sixth sense of things. I gleefully consumed the MCs.
Went back to work on Wednesday. Greeted with Monday's and Tuesday's workload. My supervisor was agigated. She wasn't supposed to be my backup. Hah.. hope some motherfucker wakes up. But I'll make it easier for you. Get my replacement. That's all. Days of watching anime are over motherfucker.
Ops Lead now. Please wake up. If you don't wake up now, when are you gonna do it ? Oh yeah, this is a workplace, not some holiday resort. Honeymoon's over... especially if its at the expense of your subordinates...
The unthinkable happened to me. After almost 3 years, gotten an email from her. Yes
her... I almost cried when I read her email. I replied, leaving behind my handphone number. Believe me, the raging urge of grabbing the phone and calling her home is getting more and more unsatiable now... but I told myself to hang on. Wait. Just a while longer...
Zaki van Persie
Wednesday 12 November 2008
Nothing cannot describe what happened to me on my 3rd year anniversary with the company.
My manager asked me to leave. And gave two other crap options. 1-be deployed to other projects, but difficult. 2-return to where things were before. yeap, letting fuckers screw me again. Nope.
Amazing. Citing me as reasons for my former team's unhappiness and downfall. Enactments of me pounding his face on the ground is playing in my head. Nope. Rapists and thieves deserve that. He simply wasn't worth it. No wonder his CO team is still problematic.
Played abit of Pro Evolution Soccer 2009. Going to see much more of that soon. Told my immediate supervisor about it. Felt guilty about letting her, GDOMs, B2b team, Fusion and Siebel team down. Told me to pick up and move on. Very nice person. I'm clearly working for the wrong company.
I tendered earlier. De-javu. I need to tender again. Latest end of this week. Prepared the letter at work already. Hah... Wasted 3 years of my time here. Yeap. Here we go again. Same ol' shit again.
Ariff offered his help again. I feel as if I'm letting him down the most. I've given my best, and more. It wasn't good enough for some people. No longer wanting to be worked up over nonsense. Dismissed them with a laugh. Some people are just amazing.
Most of you folks know the story. A story of a friend being used by another "friend", who, in turn, puts his personal interests in before his team, and not saying anything to a manager who comes up with radical ideas and just simply dismissing 2 years of his friend's help to him and his team. Amazing. They should make a Hong Kong drama out of this. I want Wong Hei to portray me ! LOL.
I don't want to be in here anymore. Let me leave. Please. I do not want to work with bosses who doesn't know what you are doing but still passing judgement about me. I also do not want to work for people who betray my trust given through friendship.
On a lighter note, here are the ten significant things that I learn, and would like to share :-
1) Always CC your boss for whatever thing that you do. They are blind and deaf and can only see emails.
2) There are no such thing as friends between 9am to 6pm from Mondays to Fridays.
3) Always make use of other people cause they are there to make use of you too.
4) No point being nice to people.
5) Do not depend on your immediate supervisor to tell your bosses what you have done. Tell your bosses yourselves.
6) Where necessary, keep your bosses' bosses in the loop for all kinds of communication. From virus cleaning to coming up with process list.
7) Get hitched / have a relationship with someone who is somebody (team leads, ops leads etc. the higher the better) in an organisation. Invincibility / untouchable perk will be obtained this way, needed to gain "additional" job perks eg. watching dramas during office hours, not involved in re-shuffling and re-organisation of team etc.
8) You don't need a good command of English or supervisory skills to advance. Suck up, wear micro skirts (where applicable), nod your head at the right time, watch anime, and stab others to advance.
9) Send constant reminders to your bosses on what you have done for the organisation. See point 1 for this.
10) DISC profiling is dangerous. Do not drive, operate machinery or make vital decisions once consumed. Seriously.
Zaki van Persie