the rants
Monday 24 September 2007
11.06amHah... its Monday again ! Wat a way to begin the blues by knowing that Chelsea lost. May they be mid table jerkasses this season. But as usual, monday blues kicks in by screwing up the folks' email at work. We received alot of spam from the ever-so-cocksterous system. Yes, my work issue is still not solved. And they sent unnecessary spam to everyone. Hah. Everyone was not at all amused by this. Well, predictable stuff from work.Anyways, went to Geylang again last saturday with my cocksterous sister. Hah. The contact lenses do really work ! People whom I've bumped into can tell that I went out with my sister. Went to Aero Furnishing. checked out the S$499 and S$599 sofa sets. The covers were not washable. In fact, S$599 sofa was leather. So maintenance is going to be a hassle... Sigh... no such thing as a cheap sofa set...Headed to Ikea at Tampines instead. Woohoo! Boy was it HUGE ! Walked around and saw a great set of sofa that actually wasn't going to burn a large hole in my pockets. 3-seater + 2-seater and a coffee table with magazine/newspaper shelf for only S$745 (inclusive of delivery charges and three extra cushions with exchangeable covers). Really kills the S$599 sofa set earlier... Plus, its from Ikea ! My sis can vouch for Ikea's stuff. Cocksterous... Its going to be home in 2 weeks time :-)I spent some time doing some soul-searching on Sunday. I can safely conclude that all the confusion are all over. I am just going thru a crappy time, still getting over my previous relationship. Uncertainties are bound to loom. I just need to assure myself and be certain of the things that I do...
Zaki van Persie
Wednesday 19 September 2007
12.47pmHah. Went out to breakfast with Ariff and Yanie on Monday. Yes, Monday. We were walking around after that and were damn amazed to find that town is actually like a ghost town with very few people. So, with my measly pay packet, I decided to buy out Burger King(TM) Marina Square Branch to sell Burger Ramly(TM)... hahahah naaaah...Sooo... Was still confused... dunno what am I feeling at the moment. Been asking around. Just this. People do wise up. I hope that they do not entertain my nonsense and carry on with their lives... haha maybe I do not make my nonsense public. Which is good. People can get tired of your nonsense.I kinda hate it when I am feeling confused and lost. The anxiety is driving you to the edge, popping up all sorts of questions like what if, if only, why not.. yadda yadda... hope this feeling goes away and dun ever come back when I am in this situation. Cos, uncertainty looms like a dark clowd waiting for rain to drop but you do not know when it drops.23 days more...
Zaki van Persie
Monday 17 September 2007
1.35pmI have to blog about this. Here's the politically correct version.It was a splendid North London derby match played this Saturday. Both sides had equal chances in the first half, but Arsenal dominated the second half with more chances and more complete passes. The wing backs were, as usual, fast and crisp in their running and passing. Though Arsenal's centreback was a makeshift one, we held on and beat Tottenham 3-1. The match had talking points of the on-the-line save by Gael Clichy. But otherwise, it was the lack of clinical finishing from Bent, Berbatov and Keane and probably the lack of concentration in their back four that cost them the game. I wish the manager all the best and may we see him again in our return derby at Emirates Stadium.Here's MY VERSION.What a trashing ! God ! The cheater team just got to complain when they "saw" Clichy "handled" the ball on the line. CMON ! Stop cheating and start playing football please. Ridiculous! Chimbonda wasn't even there defending to begin with. Their Lee something (Korean player) was taking pot shots like he was some kick-ass player... the best part was, Jenas thinks he can run thru GILBERTO and TOURE ?!?!?! CMON !!! This isn't last season. Jenas is a joke. Robinson was utter rubbish. But Arsenal, GOD. They played like champions (indeed they are the greatest club in the world). Adebayor's header was sharp and on target. Fabregas long shot was fabulous. And the final volley from the Togo international was just Henry-esque. We are indeed, firing from all cylinders. I can't wait to meet them at Ashburton Grove again. Prolly Jol will get sacked by then, and them in the relegation spot hahaha... 3 - 1 ladies and gentlemen...Final Score : Tottenham 1 - ARSENAL 3Scorers : Spurs - Bale 16m (lucky shitass of a goal)Arsenal - Adebayor 68m 92m, Fabregas 80mAnyways, went to Geylang to survey some stuff for Eidul Fitri celebrations (yeap its only 5 days since we fast...). The food was as usual, not lacking in any way. But the people, God. Was a hassle to walk. I dun like crowds. Surveyed furniture to replace the 4 year old "junk" at home :D. Trying to keep my to my measly budjet of S$300 (no comments about this please) but looks like I need to spend a little bit more. Also went to Joo Chiat Complex. I hav to admit, seeing couples choosing the baju kurung hit some emo spots in me, since that was the first time I set foot in there after that event. We broke our fast at Kembangan, of all places. I secretly prayed that I do not bump into anyone from there. Thank God for listening and granting that.I hav got to learn to live by myself again and got to learn it fast before it eats me up completely inside. Thank God for friends, mom, cocksterous sister, Arsenal...
Zaki van Persie
Wednesday 12 September 2007
3.00pmI am at work but still take some of the time to do some blogging. This is definitely the perks of working using a web-based application. While waiting for loading time and all, we could just steal abit of loading time to blog hahaha.Hah, I am still confused. Have a chat with a few individuals about this. Maybe I need to have a good chat with my cocksterous sister. Ask her what she thinks about this situation I am in. Hah, was listening to Class 95FM last night, there was this guy who still couldn't get over her girlfriend even after 4 years of splitting up ! God, I was thinking was I going to be like him ?!?!?! Am I too fickle minded and choosy over how my life partner is going to be ??? Does she needs to be juicy and succulent all the time ??? Ehhehehe, whatever it is, she has got to be a great kisser with juicy lips that I could suck on while kissing them. I dunno about you, but some ladies (maybe 1, in my case) loves it when I do that. Soft moans during kisses are definitely a plus hehehe...Oookay, enough about my girlfriend requirements. I think with regards to the situation that I am in at the moment, maybe I need to relax a little and take it easy, lay back and just not think about it. After all, I do not want to destroy other people's relationship and of course, my friendship with her as well. :-) MICHAEL KNIGHT cruises alone with his KNIGHT INDUSTRIES 2000. Yes ! I love that show ! And I want to drive like KNIGHT RIDER...
Zaki van Persie
Sunday 9 September 2007
1.37pm
Just received the rock climbing pictures from Ariff ! Hahaha ! Cool ! It was a good way for me to test how fit I am after almost two months of getting ready for my annual IPPT. Heh.. thats right. Been doing my jogging and running and beam lifting and sit-ups and crunches and leg races and yadda yadda. Rock climbing is cool. But first, please find out how are u going to descend from the top... Else u end up like me, screaming and wailing on the top, waiting for my cocksterous sister to belay you down.
I am actually in a dilemma. I dunno what am I feeling now. Now I realise it. I am being ultra nice to someone at work but no one seems to notice it until last Friday night, or so it seems. This year I seem to have a knack of doing the wrong things, falling for the wrong persons, getting these people into trouble with their boyfriends, etc. No, I am not a homewrecker. In fact, I despise this act. Its despicable. She seems to be happy working with me and all that. She also seems happy with her boyfriend. I seem to not realise it until recently, well actually, friday night when I was staring at my ceiling on my bed, listening to Class 95 love songs, wondering blankly. What if ?!? Hah... Probably my heart is playing tricks on me. I am being ultra nice to her ! For almost a year I seem to be able to keep it professionally. Maybe that is what it is. We are excellent friends. Hah. Maybe I need to stop teasing her or disturbing her and all that. Maybe...
Woked up to Saturday morning on the sound of rain. There goes my jogging plans. Did some light exercises indoors instead. Pushups, crunches etc. Took my Final Theory Test ! YESSA ! Come next year, there will be a new KNIGHT RIDER...
Zaki van Persie
Wednesday 5 September 2007
11.36pm
Heh, its ironic that I am in the same situation again. Pathetic. Sleepless. Sad. 1 year on and I am still having trouble getting over her. Yes its true. I still can't get over her. I have been lying to myself and all those around me. I can't get over her. Period.
The sad thing is, my heart still thinks that there is hope for us. Hah. That is one load of bullshit. I cannot believe it that I am actually weeping when I whine about this. Yeah, maybe I do pin alot on that teeny weeny piece of hope. It would take an EARTH load of miracle for us to be together, or God might do the trick.
I lost purpose in life. I'm like an empty vessel. Go to work, helping others, talking to them. But my mind, my heart is still stuck with someone. Thinking of the what ifs and what nots.
Every turn I take reminds me of her. Songs that I listen to, places that I go, all reminds me of her. Sometimes I just sit down and weep after praying, hoping that God would take all that away...
Zaki van Persie