Tuesday, 20 November 2007
Heheh, took some time from the weekdays to blog again. Heheh... November seems to be a good month to update your blog if you have any.Went on leave from work from Friday till next Monday. Boy was that refreshing. Been missing the feeling of nothing. Maybe thats what I have been missing in life. I feel too responsible at times. Work. Petty things at work. Life. Petty things in life too. To some, friendship is worth a toaster. To one, friendship is worth 1 year. Well, to most, friendship is infinite. I am currently lost figuring out the worth of friendship.
Went to the doctor on Friday, heh before my driving lesson. Been getting chest pains of late. Maybe I'm gonna die.. (happy news to some, I think). The good doctor did a regular checkup on me. Physically, I was healthy. Then she (yeap, she) popped up a great question. Have you been under tremendous stress lately ? I laughed first. I told her yes. I don't want to deny myself anymore. I can feel that I have been heaving for oxygen lately. Alot have been on my mind. I lost 5kg ever since fasting month and haven't been able to recuperate some of the loss weight of late... Hah, better prepare my will and testament... kidding...
Apart from this scare, the vacation was a well deserved one. Was not thinking for these few days. I allow my mind to go off blankly. Well, it did wonders for my driving lessons. Was able to drive smoothly. Maybe wasn't paying attention to the road ??? But it was good. Was able to rest well and properly. Wats the word... relax... yeap... have not been doing that lately.
Bought HELLGATE LONDON from Challenger for S$59.90 /- (yeap, the only place that sells it at this price). Was actually surprised that my ancient computer can handle it. Thinking of upgrading it soon, but number 1 priority is still TV and DVD recorder... Had fun with grape sellers hahaha.... Great fun... Killing zombies and monsters and the like.
Friday, Saturday, Sunday was great. Monday was fun too. Decided to go and visit my ex fiance's family. "Floodgates" were open the minute I stepped into their house. Although it was wasteful and useless, I did what I wanted to do since the break up. Admitting that I could not get over her. Admitting that I wasn't the same without her. Admitting that I still love her. It did wonders. I feel somewhat "lighter" after having a long talk with her parents.Sad, but better. Of course, she looked as gorgeous as ever. My cuddly wuddly hunny bunny. I never ever thought that I could love someone soo much... It affects my personality, my character, even my health... I can only pray to God to return me back to her... Its up to God now to give it a yes or no...
Zaki van Persie