Tuesday, 29 July 2008
Think about it folks. Why go all the trouble to promote three people when its cheaper to promote two ? Cite some lame reason like you being unobjective or emotional. Wow. In that case, all the people who is trained under him is fucked because his trainings are unobjective... The best part is, getting ready for plan B is good. But plan B also does not involve me !What does this tell me ? You are actually insulting me ! Telling me that my efforts are nothing !Just because I am an emo freak and an "unobjective" person, you surpass me ! Wow...
Why can't you just tell me the truth ? Sorry Zaki, its cheaper to promote someone below u to team lead. BUT, I need you to provide the same support that you provide Freddie. Its cheaper that way...
Hmm... Lets see now.... I got hated by 2 (now 4 I think, and counting) fuckers, but need to tell them hey this is not like this not like that... But got lambasted for being mean and selective... Wow...
Even if they gave me that, I can say that I have no heart to do it anymore. Yes, I am a human being. I need heart to do my things. But decisions are based on facts. How would I survive being a police officer ??? I can't be letting every female driver speeding go right ?!?! Police taught me to be impartial, fair, just. I cannot issue a summons just because I don't like his face ?!?!?! My God...
I gave them a timeline. But it was only for formalities sake. I don't want to work for people who choose to see who I am and not what I am. I am a person who does my accounts, help others when they need it, guide them through complex process, prepares guides, updates process list, manage logistics, tackle tough emails, reminding people to do certain things, checking up on validation reports, finding out from process team of unknown issues, checks up with people on IT tickets, reminds people of process, conducts refreshers, handholds people... the list goes on and on....
These are not the roles of a leader. A leader needs to be accepted by the select few in their circle of friends, hate a fucker by the name of Zaki because they can't step on him anymore, despise him because he have feelings and can get hurt. Then you can become a leader. Ok.
I am sad. Nobody takes notice of what I do for 2.75 years. I asked my mum. I wanted to quit. She asked me, are you happy there son ? I said no. I am miserable. She gave her blessing.
Kau dah tak suka kerja kat situ ?
Kalau begitu, nak berhenti, berhentilah.
Buat apa kau nak susahkan diri kau.
Insya-Allah, kau akan dapat kerja lain dengan pengalaman yang kau dapat selama ini...
I love my mum. She is the best. Yes. It is not a total waste. The experience was invaluable.
Time to go somewhere where I get to be properly appreciated.
Time to go somewhere where they call my name just to say hi instead of eh Zaki, how ah ?
This one how ah ? That one how ah ? Hate me so much but still ask me for help. No more free meals folks...
At least when I was a security guard at Harbourfront, everyone says hi to me. From the cleaner to the manager. Even though the pay is fucked, I stayed on for a year. The people appreciated me. Even when I went there during my off days, they still say hi to me. The power of appreciation. You fuckers need a course on this... if they ever had any...
My turn to ask. Hmm... 1 Aug 2008 ! How ah ??
Zaki van Persie