Wednesday, 24 September 2008
Hehe. I am kind of excited and very much anticipating this year's Aidil Fitri. It has been a mixed year so far for me. In the end of it, I think I can cherish and be thankful for the good fortune that it as brought me. Although they say that good things might not last, I am treasuring each and every second of it that God has given me. Thanks Mum.While I let others worry and bother about my work issues now, it seemed difficult for some to see that I am no longer doing what I used to do in the past. I am learning to become cold and heartless. If it was up to my stupid and idiotic self, I'd be going around telling people this and that. I don't care if I lose "friends" along the way. Its high time I start to think for myself. Its like you are at a beach, making a sandcastle, then people just pour water over it. Some people say, "its okay, you can rebuild it". Some smarter people will say, "cmon, lets go somewhere else and build another sandcastle". Well, its tough starting anew, but at least it is definitely better than working with wetter and soggier sand, which gives blisters to re-build in return.
Someone asked me if I'm still sore about it, and I said yes. I am sore about. I've worked so hard for it and didn't get it in the end, given the manner on how it happened doesn't help either. And yes, the questions are still unanswered. Also, seeing the people around me at work running up and down drives you up the wall at times. Yes, its tough being heartless and cold. I dunno how people can do it...
But I have to admit, there is something good out of it :-) At least its not a total waste. Hell, its never a total waste. I'm smiling everyday now. Grinning, in fact. New things everyday. Putting pieces into place. Learning as the day goes by. Thank you God.
Salam Aidilfitri ! Ma'af Zahir Batin to one and all !
Zaki van Persie