Thursday, 13 August 2009
wow... it has been a long while since I've updated this. Yeap. Alot has been happening in my life. Especially to my career.I have learnt a painful lesson in the career of IT industry. Nothing is forever. Just as the end of life date is being set for products and chipsets, so is the career of an IT professional. I've once again restarted my career. This time in a desktop support environment.
Yes, I am keen about it. But not as keen as I was in 2004. I told myself, it could be too late for IT. I have been doing this for the wrong reason. Yes, it was stupid to think that I can make a talking car imperveous to bullets and bombs from IT. Because of this, I have wasted 4 years of my life.
I have been staring at one letter... no 2 letters.. for quite some time now... asking me to sign up. I look into the wardrobe. It is still hanging at the back of all my clothes. Nicely ironed out, nametag, buttons and all. I missed that. The feeling of accomplishment in my life. It never felt better knowing that nothing happens during your shift. It never felt better knowing that you have made a difference in someone's life.
I've never accomplished anything in IT so far. I failed to be a Team Leader. I failed to be an ATL. In short, I've failed in IT. All I ever did was to let people down. These people actually depended on me... I always wonder what are my shortcomings ? People like me everywhere I go. Are these signs indicating that IT is not for me ?
They've actually given me what I can consider my forte. Desktop support. Hardware. But going thru this for the 4th time... It is personally tiring and taxing... I keep wondering, what's next for me ? Will this ever end ? I am afraid that this opportunity.. might have come a tad late...
Everyday I looked at my wardrobe. I smiled. It has given me solace once again. I hope God gave me this one last chance to help me.... make me be useful to the public... just this one time... I have to look at my career till 50... I cannot even picture what will I be doing next month.. let alone next year at this current moment...
I have made up my mind. I'll let Aidilfitri pass first... I'll hand the letter in on 1st Sept. Its the only thing that made me satisfied in my life all this while... I can't deny that...
God-Willing
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